1/19/2019
Our relationship began and ended in places I never could have dreamt of. From day one, you took my breath away. All your colorful streets and kind-hearted people walking amongst them. All the sounds on the pavement created a melody as intoxicating as your landscape. It was almost as if we were never friends but quickly lovers. You romanced me with divine foods and entrancing music. You had me wrapped up in the magic of it all.
Until that day, when I realized we could never last. Time and reality were not on our side. The ever-changing truths of life were coming in too strong, and for a while, the pain took me into silence. It was easier to be with you when I wouldn’t allow you to remind me of the outside world. When I couldn’t be bothered with adult decisions, conversations about things I could not change, or the need to connect to more than I had. Too many things fought against us, and it hurt too bad to let them in, to accept the existence of another time where you weren’t with me. I allowed toxic things in just to give myself and excuse to rid of you. I permitted circumstance to take away the fantasy I once found in the simplicity of your lifestyle. Just as quickly as we began, I saw us fade.
I lay awake and think of my love for you. How constant and persistent it is, but I know that we were never meant to be together forever. You were there to teach me and grow me and push me and show me all the things the world has to offer. I hope to one day to return to you, not to take you in marriage but to thank you for giving me something new to hold on to. Thank you for showing me your culture, your color, your care.
